God Calling...

God called me this week....well not literally but close enough. This week I received an unexpected phone call from the most unexpected person about the most unexpected subject.

First I have to take you back to this past spring when I felt a strong and powerful tug on my heart to reach out to young girls who find themselves unexpectedly expecting.

So together with Katie who also shared that same desire, we set forward to do just that. But God has other plans for Katie - plans that will take her 1000 miles away in just a matter of weeks. I am so happy for Katie and excited because I know God has great thing.

However for me, it was different. I've never been the leader - I've always preferred to follow. With Katie I had such amazing confidence and courage. When I found out she was leaving it was like the wind had gone out of my sails. I couldn't help but feel a bit betrayed. God had brought this amazing person into my life who had given me such great strength over the past year and now he was taking her away. How am I supposed to go forward alone?

So I started putting those plans off. I've had my reasons. I'm too busy. It's too hot. The kids are sick. I don't feel good. Work is too stressful. I'm tired.

Then came the phone call. The caller, the subject, the timing....it was just strange. When I hung up, it hit me...hard.

My reasons are nothing more than excuses. Every single one of them.

The truth is I'm afraid. Very afraid.

I've been acting like a child who lost her security blanket. God's reminding me that I don't need that security blanket. I have Him. Yes, He has huge amazing plans for Katie. But he's got a plan for me too and it's time to step out of the boat.

That was one call I'm glad I didn't miss.